
這三個星期,埋首整理這個其實不大的屋子,幾乎把每一吋都翻過來擦洗了一遍,在一個個不知道裝了什麼東西的紙箱、紙袋裡找到了"哈~怎麼有這個啊!"的驚喜。

這個感覺其實蠻好的,整理屋子、整理記憶、整理回憶、也整理心情,生活,也看似要開始上軌道了。回來後的日子,突然讓人很虛,在這裡以往記憶的東西,漸漸不在了,在英國的東西,又逐漸遠離了,我不知道自己該怎麼站穩腳步,自己都懷疑起自己,尤其每當遇到不合理的事情,我就捫心自問,到底該用什麼樣的標準來衡量。
剛回來時的第一次整理過程,太急了,急得自己緊張性頭痛,還去看了醫生,然後,就放空自己一陣子。屋裡當然是可以住人,只是自己知道還有很多東西沒弄好,心,也就一直掛在那裡,連想要吃碗麵都不知道筷子到底放在哪一箱。
從花蓮回來後,又開始第二階段的整理,這次更徹底了。現在,可以驕傲的說家裡已經沒有任何死角,每樣東西都翻過了一遍,該丟的丟,該洗的洗,丟到大樓管理員都忍不住說話了"喔喔~還沒丟完喔!"他心裡一定很懷疑"這個小房子裡怎麼可能可以裝這麼多咧!?"
整理工作已經到尾聲了,預估再一個工作天就可以真正結束,希望,我的新生活,也從這裡開始,不能再繼續混沌下去了。(因為年底了,兩個主編都開始緊張了呀!)
下午,整理桌上被堆疊的信件,翻到了這張住在西雅圖的Fin從葡萄牙寄來的明信片,喚起了我的一點思緒的細胞,我想要的生活,該回來了。

四點多的暖暖冬陽,斜射進了屋子,好像是刻意打的背景光。謝謝Fin一家人這麼溫暖的問候,這是我收過最多人共筆的一張明信片,小孩們的可愛筆觸,讓人覺得好有誠意啊!這張卡片,讓遠離了的歐洲,又回到眼前了。
Lmum,
所以說
有兄弟姊妹一起長大的小孩
是最幸福的一件事啊
可以學習怎麼和人相處之道
In the world, the most difficult, yet wonderful enough thing is everyone of their own free will would make matters easier, but vice versa. Just as your two lovely nephews, after snatching toys and small conflicts, they will come to a compromise to get along with each other. From my view the interactive modes between family are very similar to the outside world of both people and ecology surrounding us, no matter what to happen, just having to find a balanced way to go.
由 Lmum 發表於 December 10, 2009 09:00 PMTony,
很理想喔~
Lmum,
我常在想
我是在長大後(已經對這塊土地有了認同之後)才離開這裡
去了不同的地方走過一趟回來
都有這樣深刻矛盾的內心衝突存在
那些小小年紀的留學生在全然不同文化的國度滋養長大後
如果再次回到這裡
他們會怎麼看待這個地方
雖然可以視而不見的關起門來過著自己理想中的生活
但是我真的沒辦法
或許自己沈澱的還不夠
也或許度量、修為還不足
才會這麼不平衡吧
"大人"常常告誡我們
大環境是無法左右的(的確是)
但是真的只能消極的面對嗎!?
當然~
這個可愛的島國
有很多他讓人喜愛的另一面
只是許多社會深層的問題
似乎影響著這個國家的每一樣發展
大到對國家的認同問題
小到鐵皮屋文化的問題
在我看來
其實都是一樣的問題
Lydie,
是啊~享受過程是最幸福的
有時候到達了目的地都還沒這麼滿足呢
Fin,
哈哈~她還要我選哪一隻比較好呢
當然是她畫得比較可愛呀~
下次買張大一點版面的給她寫吧~
那天寫明信片時,我叫女兒先寫,一回頭看已經被女兒佔了幾乎一半的位置,還欲罷不能要畫好多隻動物給妳,後來只准畫了那隻貓。
人是很念舊的,住這兒想從前的日子很平常(在倫敦時想美國,在美國時想台灣),我現在天天在想,想找什麼理由還可以再回倫敦。
看過夫人的BLOG
去過旅行
寄過明信片
也收過明信片
這過程
真的是一種福
在聖誕來臨前 感恩一下^-^
Here I would like to share a thing of coincidence with Turtle. Just like you, referring to the article of your four-night life in the Sheffield, I have been living a bustling life since flew in England. Too many things out there to do to waste your time are, I believe, something in common for everyone who could grab a precious chance to stay longer in Britain.
One day I found myself hanging around on the high street, eager to come up with anything relevant to find a way with inspiration to lead to live out the transformation of my life, so that was why I looked up on the internet for something a little different later that evening.
At the time on your home page, the title of ”good-bye, Britain” attracted my eye, I thought some Taiwanese had been back to Taiwan already?? After taking a look into your blog, only to find out you had just returned Taiwan after living in Sheffield for seven more years, and it is really a shame not to know you in the first place while you were still in the UK.
For that matter you have some negative thought on your mind, I think it’s really nice of you able to speak up what your real feeling of our country is, that has been a lot more better than some callous enough just trying for their own benefit to damage nationals’ heath or place our country in danger without a blink, so don’t too blame yourself for paying concern to our country. Instead of singing its exploits, talking about shortcomings of our country is the instinctive reaction by a person high-spirited, showing our love to the land where we have grown up together.
I ever heard of a version that said loving Taiwan is a too big burden to say, so let us leave that part out just to speak of something cheering. I never know some Taiwanese have such absurd thought like that. Yes, love toward your country is unnecessary to be put forward on your daily life. But while on the high street looking at groups of jubilant Britons painting the team flag of England or national flag of Britain on their faces celebrating the matches of soccer, I was dribbling down sad tears on my face on the spot, how strong contrast it is, compared to the flag of our country being buried in the obscure corner. In that case, I needn’t say a word of love, because it’s a thing spontaneously from your heart.
For adapting to the life in Taiwan, maybe Turtle could keep on the positive and creative lifestyle in Taiwan just as you did in the Sheffield, which won’t be a too bad idea to catch up with the inspiration you ever had in this beautiful Northland, even though surroundings totally different, yet, no doubt, your ingenious mind would make up a variety of works to perfection.
Thankfully I discover some ways from your attentive blog to give myself some thought about how to carry on my life story, and I am just hoping Turtle could get the fair share of helpful inspiration from fellow pals leaving their opinions on your blog, as well as your beloved family. I think with them rather considerate, you could find out doors and windows of all sorts in front of you, and of which Turtle is a gal of much of heartfelt love for sure. Hoping everthing goes your way in Taiwan.
哈 我也想要買夫人那一款收音機說~
由 Tony 發表於 December 7, 2009 09:35 PM